it is such a contradistinctive question to me. i am so confused of what i have done in my life. he came into my life and some how distracted me a little in my relationship. yes. we knew each other for many year and finally we met up. and he is doing so well now. and my mind come along this question. should i or should i not. typical answer. no reason why should i not try man.fug. drain.
LOVEDKathePinky
.Monday, October 12, 2009 ' 9:56 PM Y
Hey people i am back to singapore already.. whooo... my trip to japan was awesome!! weather was 14 to 15 degree, imagine with this cold weather there is still sun alright.. sun will rise at 5am and set at 5am so i am quite not use to it when i come back to Singapore. food was awesome too. but the bad thingy was there are only ramen ramen and ramen, there are rice too but you hardly find them in the street. mainly one meal will cost around 1500 yen which is around 23 dollar ($) this is the minimum i will spend there for eating.fucking expensive. afterall the trip is worth.
let me tell you more in the beginning.
FIRST DAY arrival - Narita airport at 245pm. bored the flight at 555am, 7 hour flight we took a cab down to changi airport and check in. feeling super excited morning flight doesnt have much people so we manage to get check in just within 5 min. check in oir luggage and have a smoke and head into the plane. seat was 13C and G, facing the window. and here it goes.
you see we are in Japan and they speak Japanese. i dunno single language of Japanese but simple word and sentence i still can understand. baby went to there information counter to ask how to go to our hotel "Sakura Hotel" we have our source and head down to take the train. first impression was like Singapore facilities still the best. safety still come first. japan was totally different. they have proper seating place but their safety doesnt seem appearing. we take budget skyline. LIMITED EXPRESS which cost 1000 yen convert to Singapore dollar is 15 dollars. from airport to the hotel need 15 dollars alright. shit. we change from Nippori station to lkebukuro station .. lols.. we seriously make our way there. free packer. hahaha.. smart sio. had a good bathe and head to lkebukuro street. settle down at a mart called "song wu".ok. they food is nice. and Lotte around and back to hotel and KO.
SECOND DAY we went harajuku and search up and down for his porter bag and blue label alright. people there is super nice. they guide us and we make fren there. we even took photo with the designer that i bought the bag.. lols.. damn dramatic. hahaha.. in the end we bought 3 bag and one wallet that day rainy day and we had to stay in hotel. we stay up to watch the japan show and doze off in a while. THIRD DAY we wake up at 12pm.. oh man.. guess we are over exhausted after the flight weather today was awesome.sun is out and sky are blue. no umbrella needed man.. we head to the nearest eating place and settle our lunch there.. den we went harajuku again to get the balance stuffs.. lols.. we went to head porter again and we ask for the designer guidance.. she show us how to go and where to go so that out trip will be fruitful.. hahaha.. thanks to SANTOKO .. so we went hunting for the place and hunt for food.. delicious.. den head back to hotel again.
FOURTH DAY ... update again
LOVEDKathePinky
. ' 1:00 PM Y
JAPAN WEATHER AWESOME
LOVEDKathePinky
.Saturday, October 3, 2009 ' 10:39 PM Y
alright today was a happy day for me, FINALLY i managed to meet up with linyin sheri and a new fren name esther:) two year already and this is the first time we meet up. glad to heard from them what is happening to them as well as how they manage to progress:) everyone is like doing very well and i feel happy for them:) linyin bought a flat at CCK with her fiance. getting married already lo. sheri is a kindergarden teacher. and my new fren esther having attachment. and me i wanna finished my higher nitec and progress to a private i guess.. stop wasting tme already i told myself.. no more wasting time for me .. so i have to plan. after japan trip i want to get all this.
1. driving licence 2. my cert 3. save money
LOVEDKathePinky
.Friday, October 2, 2009 ' 11:29 AM Y
sobbing super badly at this timing.why am i sobbing like a donkey??? shouldnt i be happy about it that his truth colour come out??? feeling ultra upsad about it. not the first time and he did it again. he say he will control but why this incident keep repeating non-stop?? why keep happening to me??? why am i always be the one giving in and not you?? i start to asked myself whether are you the right person for me after we had been so long. wandering whether could i survive without you. cos i am so use to it that we had been around me for the year we are together. but i had enough of all the nonsense and i could take it anymore. it hurt to say or type it out. you know the pain in me has been long-lasted to become a scar?? the pain that i gone through you will never understand and feel it. i am scared and so scared i might lose you oneday and always does what you like and dont but ended up i had all the shitty stuff back. is this how you treated me? and this is how i feel isnt it? did you ever asked yourself how well you treated me and what are the things you had done for me that i could really remember real hard in my mind? didnt i have the right to say you when i felt that you are wrong?but am i ended up have this shitty thing?? i am just a women that is very simple and i dun need you to be committed so much if you couldnt. o felt like a fool around you alright. i big fool.super big fool. when coming to family issue, coming to relationship coming to school work and working I guess i am totally a failure. couldnt i speak up for myself sometime? speaking up always the big issue for me. communication to me is just a stupid thing. nonetheless,in my hEart i always hope you will cherish me more and realised that i am actually i am really a gal that you can spend the rest of your life with, not only that i am capabilities in both financial and responsibilities too. i always work hard to the things that i am doing always have optimistic mindset but you know what i always feel empty and lonely when i cant turn to anyone. yes, i do have friends around me which is very supportive but i always wanted to lighten their burden and not adding on to their burden. there were never be alight. by knowing this concept i have to work extremely hard to achieve the goal i wanted. this sentence came along in my mind " nobody will help you when you dont work hard" " you have to continue walking till you see the light of success" simple as that when you have the authorities people around you will start to change their view of you. it mean that i have to work hard for this year and not letting anyone look down on me anymore. i dun want tis feeling anymore. it hurt simply take a knife poke inside my heart. come back to the main topic again remember andy and elaine? yeah. the first time andy lay his hand on elaine? what you told me is that you will never did it to me no matter how angry you are! and what you have just done is totally a saint. this is the third time and you expecting me to behave as before? how you want me to faced you when you promised me that no matter what you will control yourself? what is the different between you and me and andy and elaine?? the same scenario has repeated again and again. sometime i will asked myself whether are you the mr right for me or because i am staying under this roof with you? what is the thing that are dragging me back? i need an answers. do you ever think of oneday if i really leave you because of this and you will regret?? hahaha.. i guess you wont!! and i guess is okay for you to find a person again right.pinky ar, you cant depend on man anymore and have to stay strong even you are alone. there is still many thing that you can do in this world. career, career and career. bring up you living standard and you could met someone that really appreciate who you are and where you come from. no education now is okay if you willing to work hard for it and you will succeed. nobody will take away this thing you have achieve.third time and i had enough. 4 call 1 message and you stop.and this show that how caring you are, most important thing that i know the percentage that you feel guilty is only 50% i no longer important to you anymore.and you know typing out make me feel better in a way i could vent my frustration. you will never know how i feel. i am always envy when couple sitting together chatting with their friend or family and you loved one put his hand on your lap showing that i am always around. when talking and joking with them you will be very supportive and add on with me. when they ask you about things related to the topic you will be able to chip in too?? all this little little things added up to become a big issue. you will always asked me not to talk so much, when i wanted to give idea you will glance at me, when i say "ah boy also know" your ans will be " i dont know" ha...ha...ha.. funny right. this is how am i feeling right now mama has already treated me differently and you know it, but what you have done for me? i am human being, i am born by parent too, i have feeling too. nasty word and shitty stuff i never once tell you cos mama dote you alot and i dun want to give you the impression that your family is treating me differently i understand this situation better than you. cos you are a person who always have family care but i dun have. and this is the reason i want someone to be there for me when i need someone to talk to. if i cant communicate with you why you need me for?
LOVEDKathePinky
.Thursday, October 1, 2009 ' 2:10 PM Y
Higher Nitec First semester is out and i am quite satisfy with the outcome. despite rushing the very last min revision. the result has been out this morning at 8am. however babe called me in the afternoon and ask me about my examination result and you know what i have no idea today school is releasing. while after i check out, realised that the expectation was still not the one that i am expecting. well. is alright:) i am happy. at least i can have a happy trip coming on TUE:) not to worry about the result anymore.
sorry for the lying of not going the trip as i have mu reasons. cos my flight is very early in the morning and i know you guy sure will have your plan. you know i love you guys and dun wonder you guys to be waking up bloody early alright:) you guys know what i mean.
missed the celebration with the usual for flinton birthday celebration. saw ther recent phot in the facebook posted by babe. they have NEW cliques:) initially i planned to go down after my interview and baby called me and said ah gong was not feeling good and straight away i head down to changi hospital. stay till 10 plus and head to elisa mall to catch my dinner. and i ate a little only bcoz i dun have appetite. drinking seesion with his family and suddenly there was a moment i felt the weirdness and awkwardness between me and their parent. because of the incident that happen recently? there are always things happen around me and i couldnt bring myself up to tell anyone cos this is related to me and thei family. definitely is not so nice saying word that doeant sound so nice to others when they dun even know them, i feel that this is bad-mouthing. indeed i choosen to put inside my heart and hoping one day they will understand me. i believe the will and it is just matter of time. well cut the conversation. let move to more happy thing. baby is moving house like around 6 month time and their parent is searching up and down for flat and finally one flat at woodland caught their eyes they will be viewing it tmr. hopefully everything will be fine. but i still prefer PR:)
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